Well what I see is an explosion of a balloon mixed with black and white paint or a bullet going through something in slow motion. The funny thing is that none of those where part of the original idea .
Never call yourself a clumsy art student we all start somewhere and they key to art is being patient and learning from your mistakes. If you are greedy and want to much right from the beginning you will never succeed as an artist. Just be patient, never stop learning and you will make good art. Stay positive .